Nicotine withdrawals are really hard. Last night, I slept okay, but I woke up at like 4:00 a.m. laying in a literal pool of sweat. I don’t know if the withdrawals are making me sweat or the heat, but I don’t think that much liquid has ever left my body in my life. So I got up and did laundry and took a shower.
The day was of no note. Went on a walk, had a nice dinner, etc. Now it’s back to night time and the cravings are really coming in waves. I’m doing my best to sort of redirect them i.e. eating grapes every time I want to smoke. It’s having minimal success. Honestly, the whole thing just sucks, but if you accept that, it’s pretty easy to quit. “This will suck a decent bit, but only for like a week and a half, and also if you just ignore it for that long, it’ll be fine.” Much easier said than done, but also not really. The thing with withdrawals is, if you’re able to distract yourself for the duration of a typical craving, you can do it. You just have to be consistent about the distractions.
I don’t have shit to say. I’m real sweaty lately and also very cranky and itchy. I got the dates for when I move into my new place and I’ll be outside the first two weeks of nicotine withdrawal by then, so I’m really excited for the fresh start there. I’m going to pack this weekend (throw away everything I own), so I’ll be ready to scoot out of here at a moment’s notice. Umm, what else, doing a 5k at the end of July since that’s one of my goals, still figuring out this cat surrendering thing. Those are my big goals for the summer and I’m still planning on completing them all.
Well that’s it, have a good Fourth of July!
jeez, louise 