Well, not really. I’m just in training for the next two weeks and barely have energy afterwards to write on this thing. I’ll try to get something in while I can, but no promises. Currently, all mental energy is going into the Ryan Treatise, which is a nightmare autobiographical project reflecting on who I’ve been…

New place rules. Washer/dryer, big ass kitchen, huge couch, really nice bathroom with two sinks and a bunch of mirrors, ceiling fans!! It’s great, I can’t remember the last time I lived in a place with all of the amenities. Even better, I can walk everywhere. I was out roaming earlier and it’s like a…

In lieu of lengthy explanation, I’ll just say my ex admitted to emotionally cheating on me at the end of the relationship and that that was the motivating factor behind the breakup, not all the other stuff I had been sort of agonizing over. I had suspicions before she said anything and basically assumed it…

Sorry, I’ve been moving, so I haven’t had any time to sit down and write. But I’ve been doing it in my head for a couple days – I’ve got some good ones cooking I think. Tentative topics are the move (potentially featuring a fun walkthrough video so I can gloat about my free, nice…

I’m supposed to be asleep, but that’s getting harder and harder these days. I’m just always hot. I’ve resorted to just laying on the cold tile for a good 20 minutes before I try to get in bed, hopefully to just bottom out my body temperature for long enough for me to fall asleep. It…

As we all are so painfully aware, I am going through it. That’s the point of this whole project, right? Dissecting myself, my emotions, and my habits, analyzing past memories for crumbs of insight, crude meditations on the purpose of life and fulfillment, some inane musings on bugs, all of that. It was all for…

whoops. Apparently the endeavor of driving three hours with no nicotine and then being at home was too much. I bought one pod and will attempt again when I get back home. I’m a little ashamed that I only made it three days, but I won’t give up! last night I had a really great…

Nicotine withdrawals are really hard. Last night, I slept okay, but I woke up at like 4:00 a.m. laying in a literal pool of sweat. I don’t know if the withdrawals are making me sweat or the heat, but I don’t think that much liquid has ever left my body in my life. So I…